Waves

what would I do without you?

i really don’t know

but I know that I’d worry a whole lot less

you’re always there by my side

poisoning my life bit by bit

and you’ve made it a living hell

but without you

damn

I would be thriving

you’re just some liquid

and here I am on my knees in front of you

crying like a kid

because I can’t have you

what have you done to me?

why have you done this to me?

I hate you with every inch of my body

but I love you with every inch of my heart

where did this go so wrong?

when did I lose control?

when did my life turn into a sad song?

oh look at me trying to be so poetic with all my rhymes

why are you even writing this

no one gives a shit

no one will ever read this

you’re better of with the bottle

that’s it

just give up

like that

fuck how did I get here?

I was just trying to write about my addiction

and now here I am talking shit about myself

that shit’s crazy to me

what my brain can do to me

or my entities?

who knows!

but someone wants me dead

that’s for sure

may it be me or an evil spirit

I don’t give a shit anymore anyways

it’s almost lunch time

I’m hungry but too lazy to eat ughhh

well that’s it for me

have a nice day!